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I Swear I'll Make It Up to You

A Life on the Low Road

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I Swear I'll Make It Up to You

By: Mishka Shubaly
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An odyssey of family, heartbreak, violence, punk rock, brokenness, broke-ness, sex, love, loss, drinking, drinking, drinking, and an unlikely savior: distance running.

A misfit kid at the best of times, Mishka Shubaly had his world shattered when, in a 24-hour span in 1992, he survived a mass shooting on his school's campus then learned that his parents were getting divorced. His father, a prominent rocket scientist, abandoned the family, and their home was lost to foreclosure. Shubaly swore to avenge the wrongs against his mother but instead plunged into a magnificently toxic love affair with alcohol.

Almost two decades later, Shubaly's life changed again when a fateful five-mile run after a bar fight inspired him to clean up his life. And when he finally reconnected with his estranged father, he discovered the story of his childhood was radically different from what he thought he knew.

In this fiercely honest, emotional, and self-laceratingly witty book, Shubaly relives his mistakes, misfortunes, and infrequent good decisions: the disastrous events that fractured his life; his incendiary romances; his hot-and-cold career as a rock musician; meeting his newborn nephew while out of his gourd on cough syrup. I Swear I'll Make It Up to You is an apology for choices Shubaly never thought he'd live long enough to regret, a journey so far down the low road that it took him years of running to claw his way back.

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You gave me emotions, a##hole.

Having just bought this book on a whim after hearing Mishka on the podcast of that oft-named Stanhope's podcast, I didn't know I could love again.

A bad start to a review? Perhaps, but I'm not writing this for you. I'm writing for Shubaly in return for the gift he gave me.

This story isn't a story; it's a 'how-to', it's a 'not-how-to', it's a huge education gone to waste only to be fished out from that same New York garbage pile we've all seen. It's a rare and hopefully honest peek inside the mind and heart of a good boy done bad, then a bad boy doing well.

I didn't understand why your foster brother left but I'm glad you're both found. I don't understand why I hate you for hurting your sister and why I hate you because you still have a sister to love. I don't know why I love your father's eventual honesty and why I love your restraint and in-the-moment patience.

And most of all, I don't know why I love you. This book was a great way of spending a Sunday afternoon; no more so than writing those emails you've been putting off nor fixing that leaky sink you've promised yourself since back when. And the result is similar. The reader feels like they've learned something not only about the new love of my life, but about themselves.

And apart from the royalty checks and that tear you refuse to wipe away and that concentration you put into this book instead of fixing that stupid sink...isn't this what it's all about? Learning not only to love others, but to begin to understand and maybe love ourselves?

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Leaves a lasting impression

Love this man for his humanity, compassion, honesty, humour and almost superhuman resilience in the face of trauma, including when it’s self imposed. I have absolutely nothing in common with the author but his story moved me and made me question so much about my own life choices and relationships.

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Re-reviewed!

I stopped listening to this because of Mishka’s misery. I switched to something lighter and more ‘normal’, but then kind of wanted to know what happened to him. So returned to where I’d left off, and really enjoyed the rest of it. Inspirational and written with humour, you kind of have to ride out the (understandable) misery to see the full picture. Glad I persevered 😇

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Love Mishka Shubaly

What a story, what a guy, Mishka has a way of taking you through every detail in such a raw and real experience.
A true, tough but beautiful journey of real self reflection and a realisation that all is never lost.

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Gritty and true to life!

As someone trying to conquer my own alcohol demons I found this book very inspiring 👍💕

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Unforgettable.

Bravo, Mishka, your writing is sublime. Thank you for an unforgettable read. I will be eagerly devouring all of your work.

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Loved it

So relatable on so many levels so glad I found this author. Will be reading his other books

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Interesting story

This story was very interesting and no idea how the guy got through all this there are also
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In this book too

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depressing bliss

hard to listen to. as it should be. do it. it's painful and beautiful and terrifying

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No holds barred

Simply stop bitchin and get on with your life. Your life is what you make it.

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