LA-based theater director, choreographer, filmmaker, dancer, and surfer J’aime Morrison describes the experience of losing her husband Jim to cancer as one that “unmade” her. In the slow process of remaking herself, she turned to film—a discipline that was then new to her. Her instincts told her the learning curve and necessity of a team would help her get back into her body. And, that film would help her share the multisensory story of how surfing and the sea were healing her. In this Infinite Crescendo Conversation, the Cal State Northridge professor tells Carly about her short film Upwell, and about her Mourning Surf and movement-for-grief retreats, which help others find what their bodies are feeling. Together, they listen, hold, and honor those embodied emotions—while they ride the waves. Also in this episode: Details on our upcoming retreat and teacher training in Portugal.

As a model in Paris in the ‘90s, Sibyl Buck walked all the legendary runways and was photographed by the greats. But those things didn’t click into place until she took the risky move of being herself. Her agency wanted her to be pretty, but she wanted to be Sibyl: fire engine red hair (before everyone was doing that) and old flannel shirts and piercings. Turns out, the world wanted the real Sibyl, too. Now, facilitating Regenerative Integration at the New Paradome, her permaculture farm in Topanga, Sibyl is listening to own inner voice and fully loving her true, sovereign self. And at 52, this iconic beauty is still walking the runway for designers Vivienne Westwood and The Row to name a few. In this deep dive conversation, the woman who first introduced Carly to breathwork talks about sitting with suffering, ditching the inner critic, and cultivating devotion to all that comes into your life asking to be seen.