Listen free for 30 days

Listen with offer

  • Down the Rabbit Hole

  • Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny
  • By: Holly Madison
  • Narrated by: Holly Madison
  • Length: 10 hrs and 51 mins
  • 4.6 out of 5 stars (791 ratings)
Offer ends May 1st, 2024 11:59PM GMT. Terms and conditions apply.
£7.99/month after 3 months. Renews automatically.
Pick 1 audiobook a month from our unmatched collection - including bestsellers and new releases.
Listen all you want to thousands of included audiobooks, Originals, celeb exclusives, and podcasts.
Access exclusive sales and deals.
£7.99/month after 30 days. Renews automatically. See here for eligibility.
Pick 1 audiobook a month from our unmatched collection - including bestsellers and new releases.
Listen all you want to thousands of included audiobooks, Originals, celeb exclusives, and podcasts.
Access exclusive sales and deals.
Down the Rabbit Hole cover art

Down the Rabbit Hole

By: Holly Madison
Narrated by: Holly Madison
Get this deal Try for £0.00

Pay £99p/month. After 3 months pay £7.99/month. Renews automatically. See terms for eligibility.

£7.99/month after 30 days. Renews automatically. See here for eligibility.

Buy Now for £13.00

Buy Now for £13.00

Pay using card ending in
By completing your purchase, you agree to Audible's Conditions of Use and authorise Audible to charge your designated card or any other card on file. Please see our Privacy Notice, Cookies Notice and Interest-based Ads Notice.

Listeners also enjoyed...

The Vegas Diaries cover art
I'm Glad My Mom Died cover art
Open Book cover art
Marilyn Monroe cover art
Bad Mormon cover art
Choices cover art
Melissa Explains It All cover art
Pretty Mess cover art
Kris Jenner...and All Things Kardashian cover art
The Last Word cover art
Give Them Lala cover art
Scrappy Little Nobody cover art
Coreyography cover art
Bachelor Nation cover art
The Walking Dead: The Road to Woodbury cover art
Ladies Who Punch cover art

Summary

The shocking, never-before-told story of the bizarre world inside the legendary Playboy Mansion - and, finally, the secret truth about the man who holds the key - from one of the few people who truly knows: Hef's former number-one girlfriend and star of The Girls Next Door.

A spontaneous decision at age 21 transformed small-town Oregon girl Holly Sue Cullen into Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner's number-one girlfriend. But like Alice's journey into Wonderland, after Holly plunged down the rabbit hole, what seemed like a fairytale life inside the Playboy Mansion - including A-list celebrity parties and her own number-one-rated television show for four years - quickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies. Life inside the notorious Mansion wasn't a dream at all - and quickly became her nightmare. After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide.

But instead of ending her life, Holly chose to take charge of it.

In this shockingly candid and surprisingly moving memoir, this thoughtful and introspective woman opens up about life inside the Mansion, the drugs, the sex, the abuse, the infamous parties, and her real behind-the-scenes life with Bridget, Kendra, and, of course, Mr. Playboy himself.

With great courage, Holly shares the details of her subsequent troubled relationship, landing her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars. A cautionary tale and a celebration of personal empowerment, Down the Rabbit Hole reminds us of the importance of fighting for our dreams - and finding the life we deserve.

©2015 Holly Madison (P)2015 HarperCollins Publishers

More from the same

What listeners say about Down the Rabbit Hole

Average customer ratings
Overall
  • 4.5 out of 5 stars
  • 5 Stars
    543
  • 4 Stars
    176
  • 3 Stars
    51
  • 2 Stars
    8
  • 1 Stars
    13
Performance
  • 4.5 out of 5 stars
  • 5 Stars
    522
  • 4 Stars
    115
  • 3 Stars
    52
  • 2 Stars
    6
  • 1 Stars
    8
Story
  • 4.5 out of 5 stars
  • 5 Stars
    473
  • 4 Stars
    149
  • 3 Stars
    57
  • 2 Stars
    15
  • 1 Stars
    10

Reviews - Please select the tabs below to change the source of reviews.

Sort by:
Filter by:
  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars

A predator hidden amongst the glamour...

Thanks Holly for confirming that Hefner was a sexual predator hidden in plain sight by his glamour, wealth and celebrity. He basically prayed on vulnerable girls. How was this ever allowed? These are the type of sleazy men that create & validate other sleazy men. In the wake of the "me too" movement, I really hope this is dying down. Gross!

Something went wrong. Please try again in a few minutes.

You voted on this review!

You reported this review!

2 people found this helpful

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars

loved it!

I really enjoyed Holly's story about her time at the mansion cant wait to read her next book

Something went wrong. Please try again in a few minutes.

You voted on this review!

You reported this review!

1 person found this helpful

  • Overall
    4 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    4 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars

Good insight

As an avid girls next door fan it was a good insight into mansion life and holly’s backstory. Really enjoyed it - although I can’t lie the attempted English accent referring to Alice in Wonderland all the time starts to grate !!!

Something went wrong. Please try again in a few minutes.

You voted on this review!

You reported this review!

1 person found this helpful

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars

Don't believe everything you see on TV

In the end I had to ration chapters, I was getting through it too fast

Something went wrong. Please try again in a few minutes.

You voted on this review!

You reported this review!

1 person found this helpful

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars

Lovely lady and moving story.

Loved the book and the way Holly performed it. Was interesting to hear how things actually went down during the Girls Next Door show. I always thought she came of as a genuine person. If you liked the show, check out the book.

Something went wrong. Please try again in a few minutes.

You voted on this review!

You reported this review!

1 person found this helpful

  • Overall
    4 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    4 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    4 out of 5 stars

A great book if your a Holly Madison fan

I enjoyed this book ,Holly seemed to have a tough time with so many negative influences around her . very interesting to hear of another side to Hugh and all the degrading behaviour she was subjected to .

Something went wrong. Please try again in a few minutes.

You voted on this review!

You reported this review!

1 person found this helpful

  • Overall
    4 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    4 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    4 out of 5 stars

Mean girls

Can listen to it over and over. Recommend for a good gossip book. Hugh Hefner wouldn’t be happy though

Something went wrong. Please try again in a few minutes.

You voted on this review!

You reported this review!

1 person found this helpful

  • Overall
    1 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    1 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    1 out of 5 stars

BITTERNESS AT ITS FINEST

this book drained me. it wasnt fun at all. I've changed my opinion on holly.

Something went wrong. Please try again in a few minutes.

You voted on this review!

You reported this review!

1 person found this helpful

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars

Couldn’t stop listening

Holly perfectly explains all the details of the mansion, without being crude or disrespecting anyone else. A really funny, emotional and empowering story!

Something went wrong. Please try again in a few minutes.

You voted on this review!

You reported this review!

1 person found this helpful

  • Overall
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Performance
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Story
    5 out of 5 stars
  • Jo
  • 19-03-24

Eloquently told story with no holding back

Always going to be a huge Holly fan and really enjoyed listening (after purchasing and reading her book many years ago when it first came out)

Something went wrong. Please try again in a few minutes.

You voted on this review!

You reported this review!